Family, Friends, and Fat

Even if some in your family or friends circle could stand to lose a few, some will still judge, worry, or talk to you about you being fat.  I can take most criticism now, because I know that people are looking out for me, but it's the mean-spirited way in which some people "tell" me how big I am.  I KNOW.  I look in the mirror every day.  I have arms that jiggle and a big booty.  I may not be happy with my weight, but I'm working on it.

Which means, step aside and let me work on it.  I've lost 25 pounds, and though it's not fast, it is going and not coming back.  That's a good thing.

Have you ever been criticized for your weight?  Of course you have - even if you're thin - because then people think you don't eat enough.  And they tell you.

I have a friend whose family has told her she looks older now that she's lost all her weight.  You can't win.  Hell, I would much rather look a little older and be thin and healthy.  That's fine with me.  But see, you can't do anything to please everyone, so make sure you lose weight anyway.  They're simply jealous.

I think that people that aren't perfect should not tell you how to "be" anything.  That would be everyone.

Pounds Are Going!

It's weigh day!  I was 3 more pounds down, for a total of 25 pounds.  It was mostly all diet this week.  Geez, what would I have lost if I had exercised, too?  I need to remember that scale when I don't want to exercise.  Does anyone have a motivator they use to exercise?

I'm sure I have the food down.  I eat mostly all healthy in smaller amounts, and I don't eat if I'm not hungry.  Even if it's mealtime, I will wait till my body tells me to eat.  I also have to eat first thing in the morning, and I never wanted breakfast before.  I think I am re-training my body to want the good stuff.

I passed on chips yesterday, because I didn't want to have the salt in my system for weigh day.  I would usually celebrate by eating the chips...  I know, completely backwards.  I won't today though.  I don't want those three pounds back!  

Overheating...

Record high temperatures across the country, and we are all sweating our butts off.  It's easy to get overheated in this weather while doing anything, even just taking a walk - if it's at the wrong time of day...

There are ways to combat the heat and still get in some exercise.  Go in the morning or evening hours.  We have sunshine till late for a reason.

DRINK WATER.  Most people don't realize how crucial it is.  I tend not to drink enough while I'm exercising.  If you are sweating out like crazy, you need to be replacing it as you go.  This may seem elementary, but dehydration is a problem in this country, mostly because of soda consumption.

If you have to go out in the heat of the day to get your exercise in, take an umbrella when you walk, to shield yourself from the sun.

One way to get some water in, if you have a problem is to eat a lot of watermelon.  It's a great source of hydration, if nothing else.

Be careful out there in that heat!

Losing Momentum

I've fallen into a little rut.  I have been exercising with the things I've been doing lately, but not any structured exercise; I haven't for a bit.  I haven't increased my food intake, only making a few bad choices.  I gained a pound and a half this week.  I keep playing with that pound and a half.  Back and forth, back and forth, just teetering, and not any momentous movement either!

Gotta get back in the gym and the basketball court.  Wow, does basketball take the weight off me.  When I was playing 3-4 times a week, I lost fast.

My daughter's wedding is in January, so I'd be happy to be in a smaller size.  I know I'd feel better.  I've already picked out a dress, and that needs to be a non-weight motivator.  It's something tangible and real.  You can't always see the weight going, but you can really see it in your clothes... BTW

My pants are falling down!  I have two nice pair of pants that are falling off of me.  I can hardly wear them out anymore.  So, with all the activity I've had lately, moving furniture and boxes - well, maybe it has put on some muscle, and that weighs more than fat.  Maybe some inches are going.  Here's hoping!  Back to exercise.  It worked.

Gaining ... UGH

Weigh Day.  I gained one and a half pounds.  I have been getting plenty of activity this past week, but I did cheat and eat fast food last night.  That was ridiculous!  Right before weigh day?  However, we were exhausted, and neither wanted to cook.  Our weekend and this week are flying by with all sorts of activity.

Sometimes you need junk to remind you that it's bad and doesn't taste the same as it used to.

It makes your fingers swell from the salt.

There are better choices.  I should have at least chosen Subway.  That's our go-to for healthier fast food.

I just have to forgive myself and move on.  Period.  Moving ahead!

Pushing Past Pain

This weekend was a tough weekend, moving furniture and boxes.  I've moved 8 times in less than that many years, and I'm sick of it.  But, things had to be cleaned out, gone through, thrown away, and donated.  Can you believe that The Salvation Army doesn't take the old big TVs?  If they don't, who will?  Anyway, I moved my butt off on Saturday for about 10 hours.

Then Sunday morning hit, and I couldn't move.

I still had one truck to unload and an office to clean.  I had to push past all those muscles that carried the TVs, the couch, chairs, tables, and more - very sore muscles.  Before you cry "Baby," just know that even though I am more active, I am still carrying a lot of weight on aging bones.  I feel like I can't get it off fast enough.  Pisses me off that I let myself get this big.

BUT, I am moving.  My body is active again.  I pushed past the pain and did it anyway.  I need to, as I'll be seeing my 85 year-old grandmother soon, and she puts me to shame on a walk!  :)

Freedom From Fat

As my body is changing with exercise and other forms of exercise, lately, moving boxes and furniture - moving things around, and putting stuff in storage - I have realized that I feel stronger.  I can go up stairs easier, without having to stop.  I can go up stairs without a railing, which shows that my balance is getting better.  Also, my legs are much stronger than they were, even though I'm not where I want to be yet.  I want the freedom from fat - NOW.  I want the independence your body feels when you don't feel fat.  Even if you're thin, you know what I'm talking about.  You can have a bloated day.  It's not quite the same, as your bloat can go away slightly faster than all my pounds, but it is a comparison for the purpose of understanding.

However, it doesn't come off fast.  I didn't put it on overnight, but I want it to come off now.  I am working hard to get it off, with this week being extra full of exercise. So, I should be good for a loss on Wednesday.

BTW ... Last week I weighed, although it was a holiday, and had stayed the same as the week before.  I hope the fourth will be lucky for me.  I was good to it!

Weighing Every Day

It's detrimental to your psyche.  You step on the scale every day, and you gain one day and lose another.  Your body fluctuates on water weight, food intake, and don't forget if you haven't had any exercise.  I used to weigh every day, while I was on a million diets and totally obsessed with losing weight.  It was a bad thing.  All I did was gain.  Why?

Because when you see fluctuations every day, you get depressed, and it makes you emotionally eat or worse, go off your plan - whatever that may be, and it will be hard to jump back on the hamster wheel.

I weigh once a week on Wednesdays.  You all know that, but I sometimes weigh on Sunday or Monday, just so I know the weekend, when I tend to eat a little more, didn't ruin my week.  Then I know how hard I have to work to get to Wednesday.  It seems a little nuts, but it does work.  I've lost more so far than I ever have on a diet.  I have always gotten to like 12 or 15 pounds and then trailed off the diet.

Weighing once a week is the best.  However, giving it a mid-week check doesn't hurt.