Doubts

Can I lose 170 pounds?  It seems impossible.  Like impossible, if you didn't get that the first time.  I wasn't always heavy.  I actually grew up underweight, and they were always stuffing food in me to gain weight.  "Eat all that's on your plate.  There's starving children everywhere."  I was even teased for being too skinny as a child.

Then puberty hit.

I've been fighting it since I was 15.  I always fluctuated, but I still stayed thin throughout my teens.  I'll post pics later, but I was little.  I remember that feeling, and it was great.  I want that back.  When I got married, I was pregnant in the first year, and I never recovered.  I ate more than I needed, and I hardly ever exercised.  However, I was put on some terrible weight-gaining medication at age 30, so that didn't help either.

It's a lot to lose.  I have more to lose if I don't get it off.  UGH.  

Best Steak Salad

I was writing, and my hubby brought me this delicious salad.  Made with 3-4 ounces of London Broil (bought from the local butcher), spring greens, blackberries, blueberries, a shake of salad toppings, a sprinkle of parmesean cheese, and balsamic vineagar dressing.  It was SO good.  Thought I would share some of what I eat, as people are asking!  So, this is one dinner, with 498 calories.  It's worth every bite.

Weigh Day!

I lost 3 pounds this week, bringing my total to 20.  I gained 6 pounds over Mother's Day weekend, and it's taken me two weeks to get off what 3 days (and a little lack of exercise) has done to me.  It wasn't worth it.  I should have saved all my calories for the day with my daughter, because that was the most important day.  I will next year!

My scale today said 300.  That's the truth of it.  It's ugly and dangerous.  It will kill me - if I let it.

This is what I want my scale to say to me in a year.  It will take longer, but this is a good goal.
Tomorrow: Back to the gym and smoothies.  That was working!